Taking Over the Class

Monday was the official day to take over the class. I was nervous and excited. I had so much planned, but everything seemed to go down the drain.

Because of testing, a lot of students were out of class.I felt like I couldn't go too far with all of the missing kids, but I had a lot to show them. I also began getting a cold and I didn't feel well, so my day wasn't going as smoothly as I planned.

Throughout the day my cold worsened and my fuse shortened. By 8th period, I was done for. I was showing the students a powerpoint, and one student "B" corrected me. Before I knew what I was saying, I said

"B", If you are so smart why don't you take over the class"

I couldn't believe what I had just said. How could I have called a student out like that? All of the other students looked at me shocked. I quickly apologized and said that I shouldn't have said that, and I wasn't feeling well. I was really worried that "B" was going to hold a grudge against me for it. I really like "B" and didn't want him to think that I didn't like him in class, because in all honesty, he is usually one of my favorite kids.

On the ride home, I reflected on what I said. By the time I got home, I was crying. My boyfriend asked what was wrong, and I told him I couldn't believe what I said to "B". My boyfriend said it wasn't that big of a deal.

Today, I was nervous for 8th period to come in. When all of the kids were coming in the class, I made a point of saying "Hey, B how is it going?" He was in a cheery mood and told me that everything was going well. Throughout class, I checked in with him, making some jokes, which were received well. I quickly figured out he had forgiven me for my snide remark.

This taught me that the students can be very forgiving. I overstepped a boundary by calling a student out like that. I could have handled this situation better. To "B" though, it wasn't a big deal. I know that all students may not handle things like my rude comment as well, so I really need to breathe before I make a comment, and watch saying things that I don't mean, even if I'm not in a good mood.